Happy Tuesday lovelies. How are you?
I’m sorry I didn’t upload this yesterday, I was busy painting my new room ready for me to move in today! Yesterday, I brought the paint, and managed to paint all the walls, and do a second coat too! Everything is definitely going to plan, but everything is also a little stressful right now, so please bare with me.
I think this month has definitely had more highs then lows, I have spent most of this month, truly happy and loving myself without wanting or needing the validation from anyone else. That is a huge step for me.
This month, I have achieved one of my biggest dreams, of course I’m talking about moving out. I’m so thankful that I have had the opportunity to and I’m excited to see where this will lead. I am currently vlogging as much of the journey as I can, so as soon as that’s done I will let you know when it’s uploaded.
Another high for me is going contracted at work. Many of you won’t see this as a big deal, but work was definitely bias and unfair and used my illness against me as much as it could, so now that I’m contracted, they can’t do anything to stop my shifts. I’ve also picked up a lot of overtime so be prepared for a massive haul next month!
I’m still not sure whether I should count this one as a high or a low, I’ll let you decide. My friend who I had feelings for before they left, is back, but now I have no feelings there whatsoever. I am so glad that they are back, I mean, they left me way too long to fend for myself, but I feel that the time I spent away from them, I had a lot of time to think and I have 100% put them in the friend zone. I still feel happy when they message me and when I see them in passing or whatever, but I think where I spent so long, trying to get them to like me, when they left, I decided I should like myself instead.
I think a low point for me was realising my “friends” only want to know me when everyone else has left them. Apart from the one I’ve just talked about, I genuinely feel like they don’t give a shit and I’m only their choice when everyone else has told them no. I’m definitely not going to invite any of them to my new house, they won’t be involved in anything I do because they just pick the things they want and use the rest when they feel it benefits them.
Another low point is definitely the fact our cat was attacked and died. We are buying a butterfly bush to plant over the top. She loved chasing butterflies and we wanted something to symbolise that she is there. The neighbours are still very apologetic, but as I said and will keep saying, it wasn’t anyone’s fault.
I think that’s it, next month is going to be amazing, I definitely cannot wait to share everything with you, and I’ll actually be able to vlog! I know I haven’t done that in a while, but I had so many things I had to keep quiet.
As of June, I will be posting everyday! When I reach 300 followers I will be hosting a giveaway and when I reach 100 followers on YouTube, I will also be hosting a giveaway, so if you don’t already, I’ll leave my channel link here for you to follow.
Thank you so much for reading! I hope you have an amazing Tuesday, I hope the sun is shining for you because I have a thunderstorm! If you enjoyed my post, let me know by leaving a like and comment three wishes for your June.
I’ll be back at 7pm tonight with an interview with one of my favourite people! Can’t wait to see you there!
Lots of love,