How are you? I hope you had an amazing Wednesday. Can you believe that today is the end of January. Honestly, it feels as though January itself has lasted 52 weeks. I have had plenty of ups and downs this month, but honestly, it’s still been the best start to the year.
I have been so proud of myself because I have uploaded a vlog for four weeks in a row! I remember back when I first started it, I uploaded one or two and then never did it again. Now I have a new channel, a new outlook on things, I am making more of an effort in the things I enjoy.
My YouTube channel isn’t exactly blossoming, I have 19 subscribers and my videos get around 5/6 likes. This doesn’t bother me at all though. There would have been a time where I would have been fixated on making the numbers higher, but now, I just simply don’t care. I don’t have an amazing out going life and if I am being honest, I look awful in every video, but that’s real life, that’s who I am without putting on a show and faking it.
I also don’t edit my videos, I don’t see the point, because if I edit them then I am taking away the true mess off my life. It’s not pretty, I don’t have cool jumpcuts to the next day, it’s a real life me without hiding anything. Some people will complain that the vlogs are messy, but honestly if you knew me, you’d know that it’s just a reflection into my life.
During January I had to face the sad reality that people only want you when you can give them something. My “friends” suck majorly. I only have a few good ones. I put the effort in time and time again and I just get knocked down. So I had to say goodbye to a lot of them, I don’t feel sad that I did, I feel a sense of relief because I can now turn all of that wasted effort and project it into something else.
I had such a scare the other day, I thought I had spent over the amount in my bank, honestly, I didn’t even know that it was possible to do that! Thankfully I swapped some money with my mum and she kindly transfered it into my bank, she blooming saved my life!
I have spent the month mostly being happy, I have had a couple off days where I just haven’t felt right, or things have gone wrong, but all in all, I have had an amazing start to the year, I reached 1k views on my blog, reached 130 followers too, created my own shop (release date is 4th Feb ((my birthday)). I have worked really hard on my blog and everything it stands for and I am so proud of myself, in such a small amount of time it has become such a success.
This month, I have really struggled with my weight, just before Christmas, well before I had my contraceptive injection actually, I had lost a lot of weight, I lost it naturally and I felt really good about myself. I had the injection and a week after that I noticed I was starting to gain weight again, I wasn’t eating differently, sadly it turns out, it’s a side affect of the injection. Turns out, my body doesn’t know what to do with itself, I knew it was unable to regulate heat, but it also can’t work out what needs to be stored and what doesn’t because I burn so much fat during my seizures, it wants to keep extra. So instead of losing weight, I have gained a lot. I’m now back on some tablets to help shift the extra fat.
Honestly, I don’t think there has been a really bad day this month, everything thrown my way, I have either pushed it aside or battled it head on. I’ve heard a lot of people say that they get the January blues, where they don’t have any motivation or any energy to anything, but I have been the total opposite, I have set myself some goals and I am determined to smash them all!
Last night (30th Jan) I found out I was nominated for a few awards on Twitter and my heart could have burst! I am so thankful to whoever nominated me. I nominated Soph from www.imazalfiefanatic.wordpress.com and her RT account, so when it comes to vote for the winner, head over to Twitter and vote for her!
The last piece of good news is I have decided to an interview segment on my blog, I will upload them every Tuesday at 6pm starting in Feb. I have had such an amazing response to it already and I am so thankful, if you would like to be involved, drop your email below and I will message you as soon as I can.
That guys is the end of tonights post, I don’t think I have anything else to share, I have been very happy with this month. I hope you enjoyed reading this post, if you did, leave a like and let me know in the comments how your January has been. If you really enjoyed, why not share this with your friends and social media.
I hope you all had an amazing start to the year. Wishing you all a super amazing February too! I will see you on Friday with my February goals.
Lots of love always,